Rejection and EngulfmentBy Dr. Margaret Paul
May 09, 2014
Do you have fears of rejection and engulfment that underlie your relationship difficulties? Learn how to begin to heal these fears through Inner Bonding.
In the depths of our souls we all yearn for love and connection with others. That yearning reflects a basic, even biological, human need. Infants, for example, thrive physically only when they feel deeply loved and cherished. As adults, we experience wrenching, soul-level loneliness when we don't have love and meaningful connection in our lives, yet all too frequently we don't have these things. Not with our parents or siblings, not with a mate, not even with a best friend.
We all intuitively know that the highest experience in life is the sharing of love. However, we often confuse the idea of sharing love with the idea of getting love. We try to get love when we feel empty inside and can share love only when we learn to first fill ourselves with love. We cannot share that which we do not have within. The wounded part of us seeks constantly to get love and avoid pain, resulting in an inability to share love.
Why are love, connection, and intimacy so elusive? We sit enraptured at movies that depict two people experiencing the delight of falling in love. We thrill at their discovery of each other, their laughter, their uninhibited joy. We love to read stories about deep friendship, about people committed to truly caring about each other over the long haul. And we yearn for these experiences in our own lives.
Yet when we have a chance to have love, the story is a little different. I hear over and over from my clients, "I am deeply in love--and I am terrified!"
This is because, as much as we want love, we often want to avoid that which we fear even more. We don't feel safe enough in ourselves to risk loving another. Two major fears get in our way and undermine our wonderful new connection with someone, or even prevent that connection from ever occurring:
- Fear of rejection: the loss of another's love through anger, emotional withdrawal, physical withdrawal, or death.
- Fear of engulfment: the loss of self through being controlled, consumed, invaded, suffocated, dominated, and swallowed up by another.
These fears stem from childhood experiences and from defining our worth externally through others' approval, rather than internally through spiritual eyes of truth. We will be unable to share our love to the fullest extent until we heal these fears of loss of other and of loss of self. We will be unable to create the safe relationship space in which to share love, and a safe world in which to live, until we learn how to create safety within. Inner Bonding is a process for healing our fears, creating safety within, and for creating safe relationship spaces, spaces where each person feels free to be fully themselves, to speak their truth and grow into their full potential.
Until these fears are healed, we will react defensively whenever they are triggered. What do you do when your fears of rejection are activated? Do you withdraw, comply, get angry, mean or sarcastic? Do you defend, explain, or teach? Most of us have learned many controlling behaviors to protect ourselves from experiencing our fears. However we react in our different defensive ways, the result will be the same--our reactive behavior will trigger our partner's own fears of rejection or engulfment. Now both of us are acting out of fear. Together we have created an unsafe relationship space where love and intimacy will gradually erode.
What do I mean by the term "relationship space"? How is a "relationship space" different from a "relationship"?
A relationship space is the environment in which the relationship is occurring. It is the energy created by the two people involved. I think of this environment, this relationship space, as an actual entity that both people are responsible for creating. It can be a safe relationship space, which is open, warm, light, and inviting, or it can be an unsafe relationship space, which is hard, dark, unforgiving, and full of fear. The kind of environment in which our relationship takes place is crucial to its success--or failure.
Many of us have spent much time in unsafe relationship spaces. In fact, some of us have never experienced a safe relationship space because many, if not most of us, have not learned to stay open when our fears of being rejected, abandoned, engulfed, or controlled are triggered. If, when these fears are activated, we focus on who is at fault or who started it, we perpetuate an unsafe relationship space. Blaming another for our fears (and for our own reactive, unloving behavior) makes the relationship space more unsafe than ever.
Then both people in the relationship end up feeling bad, each of us believing that our pain is the result of the other person's behavior. We feel victimized, helpless, stuck, and disconnected from our partner. We desperately want the other person to see what they are doing that (we think) is causing our pain. We think that if the other person only understands this, they will change--and we exhaust ourselves trying to figure out how to make them understand.
Over time, being in an unsafe relationship space creates distance between the people involved. When we have not created a safe space in which to speak our complete, heartfelt truth about ourselves, the joy between us gradually dies. And the more we hold back our innermost feelings and experiences, the shallower our connection becomes. Our intimacy crumbles.
In friendships, marriages, and work relationships, our joy, electricity, and creativity get lost as we each give up parts of ourselves in an attempt to feel safe. In romantic relationships, passion dries up. Superficiality, boredom, fighting, and apathy take its place. We try valiantly to figure out what went wrong. But too often we ask, "What am I doing wrong?" or "What are you doing wrong?" rather than inquiring into the health of the relationship space itself.
Only when we look at the relationship space will we see what we are each doing to create the unsafe space. The dual fears of losing the other through rejection and losing ourselves through being swallowed up by the other are the underlying cause of our unloving, reactive behavior. These fears are deeply rooted. They cannot be healed or overcome by getting someone else's love.
The key to doing this is learning how to create a safe inner space where we can work with and overcome our fears of rejection and engulfment. This is a process, not an event.
Only when you have achieved inner safety can you create a safe relationship space. You can gradually learned to stop attacking or withdrawing and take loving care of yourself whenever your fears of rejection and engulfment surface. By practicing Inner Bonding, you can learn to create inner safety when you feel threatened rather than trying to get others to make you feel safe from your fears.
Any two people who are willing to learn to create their own inner sense of safety can also learn to create a safe relationship space where their intimacy and passion will flourish and their love will endure.
When our fears of rejection and engulfment are activated, most of us react according to a deeply learned pattern - we attack, withdraw, give in, or resist, or a combination of these. Our typical "fight or flight" reactions with each other create a relationship system.
Every relationship has a system. Sometimes the system starts within minutes of meeting. Typical systems are:
- One person attacks with anger and blame and the other withdraws or resists.
- One person attacks and the other gives in.
- Both attack.
- Both withdraw.
Either person can start the cycle of the system. If one person withdraws or resists, the other may attack from the fear of rejection, while if one person attacks, the other may withdraw or resist from fear of engulfment. Or, if one attacks, the other may attack back out of fear of rejection. If one attacks and other other gives in, the one who gives in may eventually feel resentful and attack back or resist and withdraw. If both have deep fears of engulfment, both may be withdrawn and the relationship will be very dead.
Each person's protection activates the other's fears and protective behavior and they create a protective circle - the unsafe relationship system.
The way out of the unsafe relationship system is for each person to develop a strong loving Adult, capable of handling the fears of rejection and engulfment without protecting. This means learning to not take rejection personally, and learning to set loving limits regarding engulfment. When you have developed a powerful loving Adult - through the practice of Inner Bonding - who no longer fears rejection or engulfment, then your learned protective behavior will not be activated and you can create a safe relationship space.
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By Dr. Margaret Paul